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September, ended
I think I am past the worst of a tough bit and besides flagging that I think I did some things right that made it better this time ... even if I more or less caused the trouble.
Some long running concerns from $dayjob work particularly this year (but ever so much more) really seemed to escalate in the middle of the month. At around the same time I was struggling more and more to find energy to do things, not just at work but around the house and in life. And I was slacking off on exercise and stretching ... correlated with some muscle weakness I was wary of or just annoyed at (stoopid knee). And ... I gained some weight. Not much really, but the lines headed in the wrong direction and I did not like it.
So in some order and mostly on purpose I:
Today I woke up in bed in the dark at some ungodly hour. My brain had a brilliant scheme for how to organize part of my closet and I was hungry or thirsty. So, a few minutes later I got up, moved a couple things in the closet to start that bit, got dressed and grabbed a shake (and caught up my journal including this).
Contrast not being able to sleep or snooze (two weeks ago) because brain won't stop imagining arguments about work and I much prefer this ... even if it is a bit early. Cat-beasts got an extra snack out of it, so they have no present complaints. I've also read more books in the last couple weeks than I've been able to in awhile ... I'm not sure the causal link there but it's interesting and another positive.
How is anyone else managing? Can I help? I need to go stretch out.
Some long running concerns from $dayjob work particularly this year (but ever so much more) really seemed to escalate in the middle of the month. At around the same time I was struggling more and more to find energy to do things, not just at work but around the house and in life. And I was slacking off on exercise and stretching ... correlated with some muscle weakness I was wary of or just annoyed at (stoopid knee). And ... I gained some weight. Not much really, but the lines headed in the wrong direction and I did not like it.
So in some order and mostly on purpose I:
- Took a mental health day and booked a vacation
- Looked for new job opportunities and pinged my outside network, did some calls & an interview
- Picked up stale outreach tasks to some internal allies, booked meetings and lunches
- Discussed my concerns with family and friends and an ally or two at work
- Heard lots of other viewpoints, got some great advice
- Wrote and rewrote some email ... that I did not send
- Went off coffee (!?)
- Kept stretching every morning I could, and dressed out for stretching even when I didn't
- Kept trying to eat well and weigh in and measure mostly on schedule
- Permitted some deliberate retail therapy
Today I woke up in bed in the dark at some ungodly hour. My brain had a brilliant scheme for how to organize part of my closet and I was hungry or thirsty. So, a few minutes later I got up, moved a couple things in the closet to start that bit, got dressed and grabbed a shake (and caught up my journal including this).
Contrast not being able to sleep or snooze (two weeks ago) because brain won't stop imagining arguments about work and I much prefer this ... even if it is a bit early. Cat-beasts got an extra snack out of it, so they have no present complaints. I've also read more books in the last couple weeks than I've been able to in awhile ... I'm not sure the causal link there but it's interesting and another positive.
How is anyone else managing? Can I help? I need to go stretch out.